I’M NOT SAD TODAY. and I hope this lovely movement continues. <3 <3
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Throughout my life, I’ve battled more than once with intense bouts of depression. Almost always, these were times I struggled through on my own, out of fear of the reactions of friends and family. Recently, after a particularly miserable second semester of school, when my entire world seemed pointless and I couldn’t see any hope in my future, I decided to finally exert some effort and figure out what the hell was going on with me and what I could do to fix it. Two weeks ago I was diagnosed as bi-polar. This means, basically, that I cycle between depression and mania. At it’s peak, the highs can be nearly as bad as the lows. Essentially, I live for the days when I’m hovering between those two extremes. My moods are never easy to control, but when I’m at a middle point, I actually feel normal.

I’m still struggling to accept this diagnosis, but I am also determined to overcome it. On my own. (well, with help from friends and a lovely therapist) Without medication. For as long as I can.

Yes, I have my bad days. But it hasn’t beaten me yet. I’m not going to let “bi-polar” become a label. It’s just an aspect of my larger self that I have to grapple with.

Right now, I’m alright.

Today, I’m not sad. :o)

I’M NOT SAD TODAY. and I hope this lovely movement continues. <3 <3

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Throughout my life, I’ve battled more than once with intense bouts of depression. Almost always, these were times I struggled through on my own, out of fear of the reactions of friends and family. Recently, after a particularly miserable second semester of school, when my entire world seemed pointless and I couldn’t see any hope in my future, I decided to finally exert some effort and figure out what the hell was going on with me and what I could do to fix it. Two weeks ago I was diagnosed as bi-polar. This means, basically, that I cycle between depression and mania. At it’s peak, the highs can be nearly as bad as the lows. Essentially, I live for the days when I’m hovering between those two extremes. My moods are never easy to control, but when I’m at a middle point, I actually feel normal.

I’m still struggling to accept this diagnosis, but I am also determined to overcome it. On my own. (well, with help from friends and a lovely therapist) Without medication. For as long as I can.

Yes, I have my bad days. But it hasn’t beaten me yet. I’m not going to let “bi-polar” become a label. It’s just an aspect of my larger self that I have to grapple with.

Right now, I’m alright.

Today, I’m not sad. :o)

posted 3 years ago @ 22 Jun 2011 with 23 notes
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    I ‘replied’ to this already, Tori, but I ran out of characters so I’ll finish here. Really, I just wanted to say that...
  2. zagreuslivesamongthedead said: They thought I might be bipolar for years but could never figure it out for sure. After seeing a top psychiatrist, I was diagnosed officially with depressive syndrome NOS. I didn’t have the manias but I’ve had the lows and I have bipolar friends…
  3. i-walk-the-sky said: You are an amazing and inspiring person!
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